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Film Nocturnal Animals (2016).

Tom Ford: “It’s a movie about finding the people in your life that mean something and not letting them get away.

...fat naked women dancing.
They are the representation of people who have let go of what society says you’re supposed to be.
And what are they? Joyful.
And what is Susan” — the film’s protagonist, played by Amy Adams — “who’s being everything society says she should be? Miserable.
Susan’s real life is aesthetically beautiful but devoid of substance, an empty exercise in wealth and beauty.

The book is a metaphor to say how Edward felt when his wife and child were taken away from him.
- Tony's wife and daughter have a very strong resemblance to Susan, that means they are parallels.
- The lost of the girls in the family represent the lost of Susan and his child (by abortion), something very cruel if you ask me. Susan cheated on Edward. Obviously Tony stands for Edward.
- What does the gang represent? They are shown as ordinary, ignorant and cruel, they mostly represent the hidden relationship between Susan and Hutton. In their several stages... Turk is the set up, Lou is the hidding, Ray is the abortion. One crueler than the other.
- I'm more curious about Bobby, it's like the part of Edward who wants to discover the whole shit and bring justice, it's the part of Edward that still cares, but it's dying, it's not gonna last too much.
- Now, the end. Tony faces Ray (Edward faces the fact Susan cheated on him and killed their unborn child) and kill him, but in the way he's changed, he's no longer the man he used to be, he's broken beyond any repair and he ends up dead. That means he got over the whole shit, but he's no longer "The good man" as he's usually pointed along the movie.
- And the main reason to believe Edward is not a good man anymore is the revenge scheme he's obviously putting on Susan, sending her the novel, be in brief touch with her, and finally not showing up in the very anticipated dinner with her. He cares shit about her and he's no longer a nice guy.”

- we all eventually turn into our mothers...
- When you love someone you have to be careful with it, you might never get it again.
- Do you ever feel like your life has turned into something you never intended?
- I’m going to live to regret this.

Why are you so driven to write?
- I guess it's a way of keeping things alive.
You know, saving things that will eventually die.
If I write it down, then... it'll last forever.

Red Lights (2012 film) .

"Dear Margaret,
Even today I'm not exactly sure when everything ended.
I wanted to cry, feel anger, grief, to feel just like I used to.
A whole life denying myself, searching in silence for someone like me.
A whole life looking for an answer, without finding it.
I learned so many things from you, but I forgot the most essential thing.
It was me all along, wasn't it, Margaret?
It was me all along.
You can't deny yourself forever.
I did what you wanted, but I will never forgive myself for not revealing myself, for not at least giving you the consolation of knowing .. there is something else, but you deserve more.
Today you deserve everything.

You can't deny yourself.

You can't deny yourself forever.."

“A whole life denying myself, searching in silence for someone like me.
My whole life looking for an answer, without finding it.
I’ll never forgive myself for not revealing myself.
For not giving you the consolation of knowing.
There IS something else.
You can’t deny yourself forever.”

"As an entertaining movie, it’s pretty good.
Not amazing, but good.
But more interesting for me is what it means, and why I keep seeing these type of movies: the kind that play with motifs of faith, belief, certainty, and the paranormal.

There is an international war going on.
We are all fighting for each other’s minds; fighting to convince others that we are are right and everyone else is wrong.

The question, is whether there is “something else.”

- Red Lights Review 2012: Simon Magus confronts Doubting Thomas about Paranormal Phenomenon:
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